what sarah said

and it came to me then that every plan

is a tiny prayer to father time

as i stared at my shoes in the icu

that reeked of piss and 409

and i rationed my breaths as i said to myself

that i've already taken too much today

as each descending peak on the lcd

took you a little farther away from me

away from me
amongst the vending machines and year old magazines

in a place where we only say goodbye

it stung like a violent wind that our memories depend

on a faulty camera in our minds

and I knew that you were a truth i would rather lose

than to have never lain beside at all

and i looked around at all the eyes on the ground

as the tv entertained itself

cause there's no comfort in the waiting room

just nervous pacers bracing for bad news

and then the nurse comes round and everyone lift their heads

but i'm thinking of what sarah said

"that love is watching someone die"

so who's gonna watch you die?

a dear, dear, sweet friend of mine showed me this song. she shared with me that it made her think of her dad who passed away almost ten months ago. we've been talking about her dad and how sometimes the reality creeps up and starts hurting out of nowhere. i have been listening to this song on repeat all morning and i just wanted to share it with you. it's truly beautiful and the friend who showed it to me is equally beautiful. i also just wanted to ask you all to keep my sweet friend's family in your prayers. losing a family member or someone you love can be unbelievably devastating. i can't imagine losing my father or losing a husband. please keep them in your thoughts and prayers through this rough time in their lives
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